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Mystery song of the day

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I slept so good last night, man. I wish I could sleep like that all the time. My goal is to get whatever new room I have like the one I slept in last night. I gotta get a new bed, too. And I want my room to be very minimal. No more clutter!!!! My room needs to be a relaxing little nook that’s comfy and cozy and clean.

He’s finally mine again. And actually, MINE. Not just kind of mine. We made it. I’ve prayed and prayed and it was difficult but we made it! I want to cry happy tears and sad tears together but I’m surrounded by people so that won’t be ideal but the thought is there, lol. I do love him. He’s my best friend.

We’re gonna talk today... I gotta get my thoughts together so I can be organized and get all of my needs met. I can’t back down either. I gotta stay strong and get where I need to get. I feel like I’m on the right path with what I’m doing but I just am scared I’m not doing ENOUGH, you know? I don’t even know really where I’m going but I’m going to end up somewhere good, hopefully. I’m going to trust in the process and keep working hard. That’s all I can do.

My outfit is so cute today. And I smell good but my allergies?? These allergies, man?! No joke. My nose is running and tingly. My throat is itchy. My head is cloudy. But, I look nice so there’s that I guess.

The talk went terribly and actually as expected. I thought everything was okay. I thought things were getting better but then I realized that I am still dealing with childishness. I figured I could talk it out and compromise but... I forgot where I was for a minute. My thoughts and emotions don’t actually matter. I’m praying things work out and come together but the way it’s looking.......... it’s not happening.

August 19, 2018